Surrender.
Not the word I wanted when I started praying and seeking God for my “word for the year.”
For the last few years our pastor has encouraged us to pray through December and January and seek a word the Lord was laying on our heart that would be our focus for that year.
My first year was Life. I was struggling with an unseen health issue and felt I was dying. Literally and truly. As I claimed the word Life for that year and sought to walk in faith, the Lord brought me to a healing answer in April, and I spent the rest of the year building strength and fully living again.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10
Then there was my word Grace. Specifically the Lord impressed upon my heart that I was to show grace to my husband! That may not sound hard, but I must confess I was more eager to show grace to strangers than to my husband. He was a Christian, he knew me, he was committed to me,… I held him to a standard no human being could meet. I was unjust, unkind, and completely lacking in grace toward him that January. But throughout that year of God working grace in my heart, and me intentionally seeking to show grace to my husband, our life has taken a sweet turn. Grace offers sweetness to those around us. In this tough world we each need all the grace we can get.
“Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” Hebrews 4:16
So here I sit this year looking at a hateful word. But it’s my word. Surrender. I know it’s my word. I knew it before 2017 struck midnight for the last time. And the Lord has reconfirmed it several times. Most unmistakably through my devotional reading for the year. As I read My Utmost for His Highest on January 1st, in the last sentence of the day, my dear friend Oswald said, “…surrender your will to Jesus absolutely and irrevocably.” Then today, once again, God spoke directly to me through Mr. Chambers on this last day of the first month. “God cannot deliver me while my interest is merely in my own character. Paul [the apostle] was not conscious of himself. He was recklessly abandoned, totally surrendered, and separated by God for one purpose – to proclaim the gospel of God.”
For I could wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my people, those of my own race. Romans 9:3
Am I willing? Willing to surrender? To surrender myself, surrender my will, surrender my
image, surrender my inclusion in Christ if that’s what it takes for the redemption of another? I must truthfully say, No. Not at this point. The Lord is beginning this work of surrender in me. But I’m not a completed pot of clay in His hand. I’m the lump being molded and shaped upon the Potter’s wheel, and squashed down and built up again until I reach the shape of surrender. What is the shape of surrender, I wonder? Is it flat? Prone? Facedown?
I have a feeling it will be a hard year but a good one. It is always hard for us when we have to die to self. To surrender self. To lay self on the altar to be burned up in sacrifice. I’m like the ram caught in the thicket that was sacrificed in the place of Isaac. I don’t by nature willingly or eagerly surrender; God has to catch me in the branches to prepare me to die to myself. I imagine I’m not alone. I assume this is the human, fleshly reaction. But the apostle Paul had been so transformed into the image of Christ that His reaction was not the fleshly one. His specific statement from his heart was:
“For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” Philippians 1:21.
That is surrender. Will I reach that point of surrender? Will you?
Find your word from the Lord for this year, be it a single word or verse. Seek the point of focus God has for you this year.
Make it your aim to allow Him to work it out in you this year and to live it out at every opportunity. Lay yourself out before the Father daily as you hear from Him in His word. Allow His shaping process in your life.

Forfeit your queen at the feet of The King!

the beans spilled on the floor. He yelled at me and angrily walked out. A lot of people yelled at us for not getting their orders done quickly. People ordering were just rude and impatient and unkind. Just as I was about to get done just now an older lady yelled at me because her drink was taking too long. Mom, it was awful.”
Until we realize how desperately ugly our sin is to God, we will never realize how beautiful, how powerful, how gracious, how merciful the love of God in Christ is. In some cultures, like our American Judeo-Christian culture, and, even worse, the Southern Bible Belt culture, we somehow equate good behavior with a good heart. I’m here to tell you, no matter how “good” the outward behavior, unless Jesus Christ has come in and radically transformed a heart, there is nothing “good” in a person. The actions may be good, but Jesus says clearly in the gospels it’s a matter of the heart. And when someone is squeezed or goes through a crisis or even has to wait for a cup of coffee, what is inside will come out, and what comes out of a heart not altered by a relationship with Christ isn’t pretty.


“OK.”
That is what we are doing when we study God’s Word. We are taking each piece of knowledge we receive from reading God’s Word and placing it in its proper place to see God’s story being revealed. We are becoming more Bible literate. Jen Wilkins in her book 
As we start 2018, do you have a plan? Did you make a New Year’s resolution to Study God’s Word more? So how is it going? No matter what plan you use, make sure that you are seeing God’s complete picture. Don’t shy away from the things you don’t understand? I have many times written or said to God, “I don’t understand this passage.” You know, it is usually not long before I hear someone preach on the same passage or read a book where the verse I don’t understand is revealed to me with more understanding. As Women of the Word let’s be more intentional in becoming more Bible Literate this next year.
then pour out the water out like an offering. As the water made its way down the temple steps there would be praise for blessings had come. The healing was on the way and Messiah was coming and there was the solid reminder of the water the Lord provided from a rock while the Israelites wandered in the desert.


recently read a book called
One of the excuses I usually use to either to quit on my commitment or not do to something is “I don’t feel like it.” Do you use this excuse too? Well Nicki convicted me on this. Just remember these are Nicki words not mine: (1) “Commitment has nothing to do with feelings; (2) My defeat comes from my thought and actions.” Wow! She continues on with “We can’t always control what happens to us, but we can control our reactions.” Isn’t this so true in life. We are always reacting with our feelings. We let our feelings take over allowing bitterness and anger to build up when things don’t go our way, or when something happens to us over which we have no control. How about when someone else doesn’t fulfil their commitment. How do you react? Do you get mad or angry, or become bitter?
So the next time you can’t make a commitment to do something, are thinking about quitting on something you have commit to do, feel like procrastinating or letting your feelings control you, or are showing apathy. Ask yourself, Why? Why are you quitting? Why are you reacting this way? Why are you anger at that person? Take a really hard look at why you are making these decisions. Appreciate what you have and give it some time and prayer before you react. Are you acting as the world would have you act? Or are you fulfilling your commitment to do what God has called you to do even when you don’t feel like it? Do you jump into a commitment due to the pressure of others? Are you allowing yourself to become defeated when you don’t commit, spiraling down into a world of defeat so you don’t even try? Don’t be a quitter. Be a Ruth.
My friend, she had fed me. She fed me on multiple occasions, but one of the most memorable was when we were moving, living out of boxes, and she called me and said, “Hey! I have a Beef Bonapart that I am bringing to you Martins right now.” There was no time to protest, no time to argue, she didn’t even give me the option to say no. She brought that delicious baked pasta right to my front door, handed it over, said, “Enjoy! I love you!” and she left.
She didn’t exactly clothe me, except she daily reminded me that Colossians 3:12 tells us to, “clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.” She reminded me by being dressed that way herself. She challenged me to dress the same way, to exhibit compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.